Hey Dude.
Ive just been reading your posts here and Im feelin for ya.
I can say that from the bottom of my soul I know EXACTLY how you have described your feelings.
I suffered VERY deep depression for many years and heard all the usual advice from the very few who I trusted my feelings with. (Most of the time complete strangers. I didnt trust my feelings with loved ones.)
I never tried anti-depressants. (Thank god!!!!!!!)
I was prescribed them once, but had no faith whatsoever in the particular doctor who prescribed them.
Long story short, I clawed my way out of a very deep hole by my own means and learned things about myself and life that I would not have learned otherwise.
I can say from experience that you have before you a life affirming journey.
With love and respect I can tell you that the first step is "internal dialogue."
Be more aware of what you think, but not to the point of being critical. Choose more often to have a postive thought. "Worry good" instead of "worry bad." "What if good things come from this..."
If its bad, let it go.
If its good, embrace it.
"Happiness is not earned,
It is not an end result,
It cannot be accumulated,
And never is at fault,
Tho it is your right to have it,
And its there for you to take,
And its simply a decision,
That no-one else can make."
"The biggest mistake ever made on a journey is not taking the first step."
Hang on to the tiniest piece of light, and when you least expect it, that tiny little piece of light will be what lit up your eyes to the main switch of the lights in that great big warehouse of life. But remember its still your decision to flick the switch...
A series of decisions mate. Other things including good diet (fruit and veg), and plenty of water too. And a bit of exersise. These things will help.
Today, a little penlight torch, tomorrow, who knows? The sun is the limit.
My thoughts are with you mate.
Love and respect,
Timmy
Ive just been reading your posts here and Im feelin for ya.
I can say that from the bottom of my soul I know EXACTLY how you have described your feelings.
I suffered VERY deep depression for many years and heard all the usual advice from the very few who I trusted my feelings with. (Most of the time complete strangers. I didnt trust my feelings with loved ones.)
I never tried anti-depressants. (Thank god!!!!!!!)
I was prescribed them once, but had no faith whatsoever in the particular doctor who prescribed them.
Long story short, I clawed my way out of a very deep hole by my own means and learned things about myself and life that I would not have learned otherwise.
I can say from experience that you have before you a life affirming journey.
With love and respect I can tell you that the first step is "internal dialogue."
Be more aware of what you think, but not to the point of being critical. Choose more often to have a postive thought. "Worry good" instead of "worry bad." "What if good things come from this..."
If its bad, let it go.
If its good, embrace it.
"Happiness is not earned,
It is not an end result,
It cannot be accumulated,
And never is at fault,
Tho it is your right to have it,
And its there for you to take,
And its simply a decision,
That no-one else can make."
"The biggest mistake ever made on a journey is not taking the first step."
Hang on to the tiniest piece of light, and when you least expect it, that tiny little piece of light will be what lit up your eyes to the main switch of the lights in that great big warehouse of life. But remember its still your decision to flick the switch...
A series of decisions mate. Other things including good diet (fruit and veg), and plenty of water too. And a bit of exersise. These things will help.
Today, a little penlight torch, tomorrow, who knows? The sun is the limit.
My thoughts are with you mate.
Love and respect,
Timmy
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