Chinese Energetic Medicine by Grace

[musingmus]

thanks to those who have responded to my cry of help.
I just think im so blocked with negative emotions, that healings just dont resonate with my being.
i really wish i was in a healthier state of mind.

the last few days have been difficult for me. i threatened suicide on my self, and still feel those thoughts immensely.
when your in this much pain, you just want it to go away, at all cost. living in emotional pain is not fun. as i type this, im flooded in tears. this is my life. i cry, i self loathe, and i think negative thoughts.

i dont know what else to do. death seems to be a good answer. i know its not the right answer. i keep wanting to believe there is a light, but god forbids that light for me. all i see is dark, and no hope.

i dont know if CEM can really help me. i see therapist, i do healings, i meditate, i try and exercise. i try to be social, but its so hard to not break down and cry and then ruin other peoples time.
anyways, unless the hand of god really comes to my aide, i dont think there is much hope for me.

i dont know at this stage what type of corrections can be done. I just want to feel better. I really really do. so bad. so very badly. i just want to be happy.

[Moneyhon]

Amazing People

I am always blown away by the love and generousity of this forum. It gives me goose bumps when I read and feel the love pouring out to help all that ask for it. You are all so spectacular. Thank you for being such an inspiration and for your love.

With Joy,

Maura

[Sunshine]

Dear Musingmus

I just wanted to say that you're not a lost cause or anything else you said. Don't beat yourself up because you can't feel anything. I too used to not be able to feel anything and really struggled with feeling gratitude I would struggle and struggle and then maybe manage to come up with one thing and then just think of everything that was "wrong". I had to force myself to do it and it didn't make me feel better in any way at the beginning. I had to make a conscious effort to keep at it. And don't worry that you can't feel the blanket of love. The love that comes your way does reach you, even if you can't feel it. And every little thing that you read and every bit of gratitude you think of, no matter how small or how fleeting, does make a difference. Whoops, got to go - way past my bedtime. Just know that even though you can't feel it yet you are surrounded by love.

[Ayurved]

Grace, I'm so thrilled for you and proud!!!! We will all be looking forward to your important summer tournement.
and BTW, thank-you so much for your corrections....I have felt them!

For the last few days and longer, I have been in absolute agony! Not because of certain things going on, although they are a reflection of that...but because of what my soul is yearning and screaming for vs the bondage of what I have 'told myself' and how I hold myself back. Its an awkward, horrible and ultimately good place to be, I'm not getting anything done...I just really hope the 'good side' wins! Nothing I put on my 'lists' helps anything move forward. After having some really dark days, where I wondered what purpose of effort would be, to try and start anything new (I previously 'cleared' a whole lot out of my life) I kept looking to the support I already have, like here....and something new to bring a spark. There is a whole lot of LOA and spiritual growth stuff out there, sometimes I get tired of the long advertisement that ends with your life will change if you just shell out this $97.

I re-looked into Elyse Hope Killoran, she is very sweet and has some good free resources. I'm sure she's saying the same things as others, but I stayed up late listening to a couple of her broadcast archives and a few things really helped...and maybe will help you too Musingmus. For me, her best message was that those of us who make the decision to step up to being a spiritual teacher or even live a spiritual life....will experience karmic evolution acceleration! Its the gap between old and new that's so painful.
Also 'Be ready for what your'e being purified into"...and the one I'm clinging to : "Who you want to become is inevitable"...and "I haven't even begun to tap into the opportunities available to me" isn't bad either!
Energetic Goal Alignments on Blog Talk Radio

Anyway, keep looking for and more importantly seeing the angels that are here to help pull you forward Musingmus!
Sending you much love, hugs and prayers.

In Love & Gratitude,
Nancy

[Kevin]

Sometimes, when you're awash in the abyss, is seems that there is no way out. While we tell you that is an illusion, there is always a way out; there is always light, hope, and love, you are in so deep that it is overwhelming.

You say you can't feel love or gratitude -- but you hang out here, in the lovingest and most grateful of threads I've ever seen on any forum anywhere... so I would say that the light and love here beckon and comfort you, despite it all. If you had no sense of love, gratitude and light you would not be here.

It is actually quite easy to feel gratitude. Start with something easy.

[Awaken Gratitude by awakening your senses.
No matter what your circumstances are, your senses - sight, hearing, smell, taste, touch - can serve as conduits of Gratitude.

Your senses are always with you; they literally let you know you are alive an sentient. But your sense are always ready to do so much more. They can connect you to the very core essence of your being. All you have to do is bring your consciousness to the moment, breathe into the sensation and give thanks for the experience.

*Listen and to beautiful, moving music or listen to the happy voices of children at play
*Observe and rejoice in the colors around you
*Smell a favorite scent - a flower, food, perfume
*Feel the clothes upon your skin, enjoy the softness of a baby’s skin or a pet’s silky fur
*Taste the juicy sweetness of a favorite fruit

There are dozens of wonderful ideas posted on Stacey Robyn's Go Gratitude blog. The suggestion above is the one I contributed.
How do you Go Gratitude? : Inner Space …

I really suggest doing the Go Gratitude Experiment. All you do is sign up to receive a Gratitude message by email every day for 42 days. It is free, and quite liberating.

http://www.gogratitude.com/

The Go Gratitude web site manifested to me right when I was in the throes of the abyss. I had lung xray and cat scans that suggested late stage cancer. I had also recently lost my job. After a week of gratitude messages (which I read and meditated upon) and an amazing ThetaHealing session, I had a very intense bronchoscopy - the drs tested EVERY spot they could find (20) -- and all biopsies were clear; three days after the bronchoscopy I was offered an excellent fit job at a pay 40% HIGHER than my lost job.

Amazing things happen when you drag your head out of the abyss and look to the light. That's all I did, really. I decided to live and love.

Love and Light to you!
Expect a Miracle!!!

Eileen

Eileen,

for sharing your experience. I found it very uplifting and encouraging.

[Empath]

especially for Musingmus

Sometimes, when you're awash in the abyss, is seems that there is no way out. While we tell you that is an illusion, there is always a way out; there is always light, hope, and love, you are in so deep that it is overwhelming.

You say you can't feel love or gratitude -- but you hang out here, in the lovingest and most grateful of threads I've ever seen on any forum anywhere... so I would say that the light and love here beckon and comfort you, despite it all. If you had no sense of love, gratitude and light you would not be here.

It is actually quite easy to feel gratitude. Start with something easy.

[Awaken Gratitude by awakening your senses.
No matter what your circumstances are, your senses - sight, hearing, smell, taste, touch - can serve as conduits of Gratitude.

Your senses are always with you; they literally let you know you are alive an sentient. But your sense are always ready to do so much more. They can connect you to the very core essence of your being. All you have to do is bring your consciousness to the moment, breathe into the sensation and give thanks for the experience.

*Listen and to beautiful, moving music or listen to the happy voices of children at play
*Observe and rejoice in the colors around you
*Smell a favorite scent - a flower, food, perfume
*Feel the clothes upon your skin, enjoy the softness of a baby’s skin or a pet’s silky fur
*Taste the juicy sweetness of a favorite fruit

There are dozens of wonderful ideas posted on Stacey Robyn's Go Gratitude blog. The suggestion above is the one I contributed.
How do you Go Gratitude? : Inner Space …

I really suggest doing the Go Gratitude Experiment. All you do is sign up to receive a Gratitude message by email every day for 42 days. It is free, and quite liberating.

http://www.gogratitude.com/

The Go Gratitude web site manifested to me right when I was in the throes of the abyss. I had lung xray and cat scans that suggested late stage cancer. I had also recently lost my job. After a week of gratitude messages (which I read and meditated upon) and an amazing ThetaHealing session, I had a very intense bronchoscopy - the drs tested EVERY spot they could find (20) -- and all biopsies were clear; three days after the bronchoscopy I was offered an excellent fit job at a pay 40% HIGHER than my lost job.

Amazing things happen when you drag your head out of the abyss and look to the light. That's all I did, really. I decided to live and love.

Love and Light to you!
Expect a Miracle!!!

Eileen

[KimJ]

Decision help please!

Hi everyone.

I just wanted to ask anyone and everyone who is able to test strength for things... I posted a while back but didn't get an answer about my kids' school, so here's a recap again. For various reasons (mainly financial and personal beliefs), I'm looking at switching schools from private to public. On the one hand I feel strongly that this is best for me personally (due to the personal beliefs) and for us as a family, financially speaking. However, my kids LOVE their current school and it serves their needs very well in the things they offer (fabulous music program, etc.), which the public school doesn't offer, plus my older son has a really hard time making friends, and he has just one friend who is a girl so thinking of taking him away from his only friend just about kills me. Sorry, I don't like to use negative words but you get the idea of where I'm at on this!

So, based on all that, I'm completely torn on which direction to go, which is the best for everyone. Testing myself comes out different depending on which perspective I'm coming from... does that make sense? I'd love it if someone else objective could test for this....

BTW, Sallyjane, you're manifestations are just amazing! Congratulations on taking it to such a high level - I know you've done so much inner work to get there! You're an inspiration to me.

Thank you!!
Kim

[Empath]

correction request

Hello Grace,

Could you please send a correction to me?
My feet and ankles are all red and broken out. It's one of those conditions -- a frankly spectacular case of psoriasis/eczema -- that has drs shaking their heads and saying "oh that looks painful" -- but no relief offered -- unless I want to take some heavy duty drugs (that may or may not offer relief, but no cure... and may also give liver lesions, cancer, etc.)

I keep my good humor and gratitude with me... your posts are such a boost, they really help, thank you.

...but I have a lot of stuff to do; places to go; people to see; gardens to nurture and am in deep need a healthy body and healthy legs, ankles, feet.

So an energy boost/correction is humbly requested.
Overall, I am a very proficient manifestor, but this issue is quite a challenge for me.

Love to all,
Eileen

[zartgirl]

Correction please

Grace if you could do some corrections for my sinuses. Again I am having trouble with them making me feel sick. I know it is a layer that is needing to come off right now! In the mean time I am at home feeling yucky!

Also a blessing, since quitting sugar I have lost more weight! I am at my lowest weight in years! In the last week I have lost 9 lbs! I was amazed when I stepped on the scale to see that weight this morning. 6 of them in the last few days!

Sunshine, I am sending you a blanket of LOVE too. Just know that your home is being prepared for you to move into and be thankful for that home. It will work out just like clockwork!

Musingmus, When I first started I didn't really know how to feel LOVE or Gratitude either, but I just kept repeating thank you thank you thank you thank you. I would say thank you for everything in my life... The Shelter I lived in, the little things too. I would just look for reasons. It takes time to reprogram your mind, and your heart to feel it. Just keep repeating over and over thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you! Write on your bathroom mirror to remind yourself to say it. Eventually you will transform from where you are to where you want to be. Trust me, so many of us have been where you are, not knowing how, but we have been able to transform and so can you. You are working on remembering who you really are, and just how beautiful you are!

Just keep with it, and you will come out the other side!

Blessings Love light and joy
Sallyjane

[musingmus]

thanks Zatgirl

i dont know how to feel gratitude or feel love.
i dont know how to access it, other than just saying it. In which return, i feel numb to it. i dont feel it. i dont understand when someone says be grateful.
i hate being alive and thats the one thing someone always says, "be grateful your alive".

the only emotions i feel is anger, sadness, and pain. i walk in pain.

i dont now. i really think im that one person who is a lost cause.

and yes, i have read every post. ive spent hours and hours reading post in this thread.

thanks for sending me a blanket of love...i didnt feel that either. i think maybe my energy is so corrupt with negativity, that anything positive bounces off it.

[zartgirl]

Musingmus,

Musingmus,
I just wanted to let you know that today I post about having a house bought for me, and all kinds of cool stuff, but it was not always that way...

I encourage you and everyone to read through the thread from beginning to now. Somewhere in 2007 I started posting here and asking for corrections (it would be the last half of the year), but read from start to end as much healing you will receive from all the past corrections. When I was living in the shelter and everything seemed hopeless I would come here in tears asking for help! Now I come here to help others too... I could not have ever imagined that way back then!

This was the toughest part of my journey to learn to stay in Gratitude and LOVE, and those two will bring forgiveness naturally! They are three of a kind! They go together! Before I came here people in the church used to tell me to forgive, but I could not do it... Then I came here and they told me to live in Gratitude and I just forgave everyone, including myself (Especially myself!). I went from living in hatred to living in Joy! Happiness is the LOVE coming out of your heart, so to live in gratitude and love will naturally take away the depression. I really encourage you to read the old posts as so much of the healing and corrections will come through to you, and you will receive the same wisdom I did from Grace as you read through my transformation!

Right now I am sending you a Blanket of LOVE to warm your heart and soul. Let it crack open you heart to let the endless love that is in your heart already flow outward and heal you from the inside out.

I am sooo excited for you as you have started this journey and all the exciting things and power you are about to discover within yourself! Congratulations!

Love light and JOY!
Sallyjane

[musingmus]

Depression

I just wanted to pay respects to grace and express my emotions on here.
I feel horrible letting loose, so ill keep it simple. Im also at the stage of thinking no one really wants to read about someone being so depressed.
But if my emotions resonate with anyone, then it will help grace to help us all.

Ive been severely depressed for quite sometime now. too me it seems to be at the wrong time, since these years should be my prime time of life.

i have so much fear, which keeps me in the negative thinking, i think im worthless, i feel i have nothing to contribute to others, i feel lost, i feel if something could make me happy, that i dont deserve it, so it passes by me. im so jealous and hurt that soooo many people are gifted and talented. I resent them. i cant even watch susan boyle because it depresses me, im sure she is so amazingly talented, but i wont even see for myself. i cant watch movies, or listen to new music, it all depresses me. when i see someones artwork, or creations, i cant say WOW thats amazing, i get hurt and hate god for making me this stupid plain person.
I want to create so badly, i want to heal others so badly, i want to be alive so badly, i want to feel happy and peace so badly.
but obviously not bad enough if im consistent in staying in this negative place.
Im depressed and i see no light at the end of the tunnel.
im constantly wanting a end to this miserable life.
i feel i have nothing to give to others. only my negative attitude, which nobody in their right minds want.
im alone, because of this depression.

[Sunshine]

Empath - thank you for your lovely post. That was just what I needed to read right now. And Sallyjane, too. That is so awesome, manifesting having a home bought for you exactly where you want to live. I am so happy for you. And that's really funny about your lizard/wizard!
I've been having my worry head on about my move and where I'm going to live and how I'm going to support myself because all the "evidence" shows me that I just don't have the money and just can't afford what I need and how am I going to sort all the other stuff etc etc . It takes constant effort to not allow these thoughts and remind myself that money is only energy, houses are only energy and to really focus on my picture of what I want and how I see things and to relax and trust that everything will work out for the best. Keeping your vibration high and focused on being whole and healthy and abundant and happy isn't always easy! and it's important to remember to help each other see ourselves as our best and not focus on what's "wrong" and these posts really help. The MasterKeys system is really good too, thanks Grace. I have been studying it and finding it helpful.

[zartgirl]

OMG! I am Powerful!

Omg, I am soooo powerful at manifesting! So tonight I was talking to my X husband... and he has decided to pay me $1000.00 dollars a month to help me become self sufficient (remember my post above about releasing my X of the expectation of him paying child support) Now he is tripling his payment to me, after shortly doubling it a couple of months ago! Not only that, but to assist me in moving down to Calif., he is going to buy me a place to live in Calif. He also asked me which town I wanted to live in as he is looking at houses in two towns both of which I would be happy to live in.

Okay as if that is not enough he asked me if I would use my "Wizard Thing" to test for strength if the career choice he is thinking about making is a good direction! At first I could not figure out what he was talking about... I kept hearing could you use your lizard.... I was like What? Finally I figured out he was talking about my pendulum. Hmmm... maybe this explains why he acts afraid of me... He thinks I am a wizard! Oh, I just thought it was the funniest thing, but also felt honored that he feels he can ask me that.

Know that you too are just as powerful as Grace and I and the other healers on this forum! YOU too can manifest in the same way!

Love Light and Joy
Sallyjane

[Grace]

For Empath!

Grace,
Beautifully said! And I read this post immediately after I forwarded a Morning Message received today, The channel talks about a Container of Gratitude, lovingly and joyfully tended like a gardener.

Morning Messages

_________Message from the "Team"_________
I wanted to share the personal message I received from the "team" about both of my loved ones. I believe this message is one to be shared with everyone as we all experience the challenges of the change in our lives and in the lives of our family and friends.
It is important to remember that it is far more effective to hold all that you are concerned with in the container of gratitude. It may seem difficult, however, we invite you to continue to be creative and envision the best rather than worry about the worst. Begin to see the most amazing outcome happening, hold that vision with the tenderness of a gardener and her new seedling. You are far more effective in supporting their healing and well-being by seeing them at their best. When a thought of concern or worry comes to your active mind, quickly find something about this situation in which you are grateful. It can be a simple gratitude. Pre-plan these gratitude's, have a file of miracles, blessings easily ready to grab when needed. The minute you are aware that you are dropping into a place of worry or concern, take a deep breath, sigh and replace the worry thought with one that has a lighter flavor, a more coherent frequency. This is a conscious exercise, it is what is yours to do right now. You can be the anchor for your loved ones to hold on to, the vibration that they will entrain with, the link to their strength and well-being.
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During these times of great change and great evolutionarily shifts, it is most important for those who are aware to hold a firm and stable platform for all those who are striving to transform some dysfunction. Remember that you are a transformer; everyone is a transformer of dense, dysfunctional patterns and energy. However these dysfunctional patterns and energy manifest in your life and the lives of others, they are there to be processed and transformed through the conscious system of an awakened multidimensional being. This is the same tool to use with any situation and thought patterns that do not support your joy and well-being, whether it is health, finances, personal relationships, jobs or family.
You can align yourself with the flow of well-being, and joy simply by holding a clear and firm frequency of gratitude. The mind loves to solve problems, to worry, to fret, to be concerned. That is what the mind loves to do and the mind will hijack your time doing just that. This is the old paradigm; this is what you are shifting and transforming. Realize that it is just a pattern of thought; it is just an old emotional frequency that still resides inside the system of your mind. It is important to understand and realize that you are moving into a new paradigm in which you will hold a vision, a thought, and intention of what you desire to manifest and it will be so.

So this day we invite you to return to a state of gratitude as often and a frequently as possible. Know that your loved ones also have patterns to shift and transform, that is theirs to do. Know that your loved ones are also magnificent multidimensional beings who agreed to assist in the transformation of dysfunction on this planet, in all its many forms. Each one has a purpose, an assignment, a soul agreement that they are in the process of completing. Support them with your highest and your best thoughts and emotions for them. They will feel this on the subtle planes of consciousness. Your blessings will embrace them and lift them up, your joy will light their way.
We invite you to call upon the celestial and divine realms of truth, love and light, assistance and support is as close as the request. Know that we are always as near has your heartbeat and as close as your breath. Be at peace beloved, know that all is well.

How Fabulous you ARE!! for being on this Forum!!