
I had a realization today, or just remembered is a better way to put it, about what scared me so much when I saw the "light" the other day. Among other fears that went on, I had a moment of absolute terror that I would just disappear if I all of a sudden understood and remembered the Truth. I had been making clearing attempts regarding my ego and releasing its hold, and it just all of a sudden terrified me when I thought, so what happens if I release it entirely... what happens then? Does the "me" that exists in this illusion disappear? Then when I started "seeing" things, I just had to stop it.
Anyway, it still makes me nervous to allow myself to go there again as I'm not really sure the answer to those questions and I'm still kind of nervous I'll disappear! LOL I can't help but think though that there's far more enlightened people than me and they're still here... in my illusion... so it must be safe.

You know something else that's been interesting is the last two days I've had NO cravings and haven't been particularly hungry at all. I always get cravings and it's usually a matter of willpower to battle them, but out of nowhere I haven't had the cravings. Then I notice zartgirl asking for corrections on diet just the other day.. interesting. Yet I also tried doing the Z-point word while watching Paths and I'm on the Take It Off module (or whatever it's called). More hmmmm...
Good luck with your test, Adrienne. Thanks for your posts; I enjoy reading your insights!
Well, that's it for now. Thanks for reading.
Hugs.
Kim
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