Originally posted by Grace
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I've been a bit of a mess lately. See, i have this strange Jekyll and Hyde personality. On one hand, my main passions in life are healing modalities and spirituality. On the other hand, I am hedonistic and self-destructive, and over the past few years I have treated my body worse than I care to divulge, for the shame of knowing that I am not as pure as I should be.
I have had a lot of substance abuse problems, caused by trying to get away from the pain, but of course this leads to more pain in the long run. Since I found Paths, things have changed a lot. I'm slowly moving away from my old lifestyle. But it has taken a toll on my body and mind. While I do not feel as much anxiety since I last posted, I have felt as if I am in a strange fog, listless, tired, cold and irritable. I don't think it's lack of spirulina or cog diss, as I have felt this way before Paths. In fact, the last time I felt like this, I was on holiday for a month, and these feelings ruined most of it. In the last week of that holiday, I found Paths and went on the Mood Elevator module, which cleared most of it up for me except the tiredness. Incidentally, I am going away on holiday in a few days. I'm on the Mood Elevator again but I know healing may take time, so any little correction helps. I want this holiday to be a good one. I'm taking my vitamins and exercising, hoping to cut down the amount of time it takes me to heal.
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