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Corrections for ego tantrums
Apologies in advance for this long post...!
Grace, and all who are willing, would you make corrections to curb my ego? It’s been throwing some tantrums lately.
I’m involved in start up and planning of a large project with a large concept. It is near and dear to me however it is not my project. A friend has been “filled with Spirit” so to speak with a vision much like my own but her’s is much clearer, more defined. It’s an excellent idea at the right time and in the right place. She might be considered the mother of this plan and my part is as midwife and birth coach. The “child” will belong to the larger community.
I am thrilled with my part. I have no desire to thrust myself into the full throes of all that needs to be done. My friend is fully capable, fully there and fully thriving on it. My skills are in seeing large concepts, finding connections and being an instigator (owning these attributes is still somewhat new for me). I like being part of the brain trust and don’t have a lot of ego involved –except… when I hear my ideas, my concepts and the products of conversations I have been sharing for years come from her mouth as soley her own.
I’m sure these ideas are hers. We all draw from the same well. These conversations aren’t new or exclusive to us, have been generating for years and none of us has ownership, and yet several times lately, as I listen to her “share the word” as though generated only through her own ideas, my little-me bristles. I feel disregarded and unacknowledged. I don’t like this petty “me too!” or “that was my idea!” feeling. I’ve done some EFT a few times with some benefit but the whole thing came up again tonight.
A bit of a back-story to this is I’m the youngest child with all the cute-but-we-don’t-take-her-serious issues that go along. I became aware in Jr. High that I could say something, it would go unnoticed, and in the next breath someone else would say my words verbatim and everyone would gasp, “Yes! That’s it!” My husband has come to recognize this since he is often the one getting the “Yes, of course. That’s it!” distinction by repeating my words. He is quick to acknowledge me though I’ve no idea if it actually registers with others or not.
I know I am a communicator. The information comes through me if iI am recognized or not. It’s become something an amusement for us, for me – except, of course, when it doesn’t feel so funny.
The incident tonight and those recently smack of this old feeling. If they persist I will have conversation with my friend to help clear our path forward. However, I’d be very grateful if you could help me take the edge off this old pattern before hand or better yet, help me clear it once and for all.
I think related to this is the words belle99 quoted in the launching of the new ACIM thread http://www.energeticforum.com/person...m-hawkins.html. They have been resonating with me since, powerfully calling me to claim my power, shuck the remaining kid-sister baggage and create the Self I want to wear in this life.
with profound gratitude...
Apologies in advance for this long post...!
Grace, and all who are willing, would you make corrections to curb my ego? It’s been throwing some tantrums lately.
I’m involved in start up and planning of a large project with a large concept. It is near and dear to me however it is not my project. A friend has been “filled with Spirit” so to speak with a vision much like my own but her’s is much clearer, more defined. It’s an excellent idea at the right time and in the right place. She might be considered the mother of this plan and my part is as midwife and birth coach. The “child” will belong to the larger community.
I am thrilled with my part. I have no desire to thrust myself into the full throes of all that needs to be done. My friend is fully capable, fully there and fully thriving on it. My skills are in seeing large concepts, finding connections and being an instigator (owning these attributes is still somewhat new for me). I like being part of the brain trust and don’t have a lot of ego involved –except… when I hear my ideas, my concepts and the products of conversations I have been sharing for years come from her mouth as soley her own.
I’m sure these ideas are hers. We all draw from the same well. These conversations aren’t new or exclusive to us, have been generating for years and none of us has ownership, and yet several times lately, as I listen to her “share the word” as though generated only through her own ideas, my little-me bristles. I feel disregarded and unacknowledged. I don’t like this petty “me too!” or “that was my idea!” feeling. I’ve done some EFT a few times with some benefit but the whole thing came up again tonight.
A bit of a back-story to this is I’m the youngest child with all the cute-but-we-don’t-take-her-serious issues that go along. I became aware in Jr. High that I could say something, it would go unnoticed, and in the next breath someone else would say my words verbatim and everyone would gasp, “Yes! That’s it!” My husband has come to recognize this since he is often the one getting the “Yes, of course. That’s it!” distinction by repeating my words. He is quick to acknowledge me though I’ve no idea if it actually registers with others or not.
I know I am a communicator. The information comes through me if iI am recognized or not. It’s become something an amusement for us, for me – except, of course, when it doesn’t feel so funny.
The incident tonight and those recently smack of this old feeling. If they persist I will have conversation with my friend to help clear our path forward. However, I’d be very grateful if you could help me take the edge off this old pattern before hand or better yet, help me clear it once and for all.
I think related to this is the words belle99 quoted in the launching of the new ACIM thread http://www.energeticforum.com/person...m-hawkins.html. They have been resonating with me since, powerfully calling me to claim my power, shuck the remaining kid-sister baggage and create the Self I want to wear in this life.
with profound gratitude...
You'll do fine Nancy 
I'm psyched for you!
The knee-jerk habits of thinking and expectation makes for fits and starts again and again but, whew!, feeling good feels so good!!! And feeling better, even better!!
If anyone can manage by trusting in themselves, it's you. You go, girl!
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