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I am discovering that as my instructions become more and more specific, cognitive dissonance produces less anxiety and fear. There is also less of a compulsion to obsessively analyze every thought, whether resonant or dissonant.
The mental/emotional friction is not drawn out over several days like the old cognitive dissonance. The friction comes to a quick combustion and the most intense part occurs over a few hours, with a definite peak.
I had such an experience watching my program a couple hours before attending a yoga class on Sunday. During the yoga class the movement of energy facilitated some core emotional release. I sobbed noiselessly; the crying came in several waves. I had some nearly wordless thoughts and images that showed me a new understanding that I had reached in what has been in one sense a ten-year-long issue, and in another sense, a lifetime issue. I realized in a moment the very type of changes I would need to make to truly change the course my life had been on. These changes became clarification requests to the programmers.
Everything feels different now.
The mental/emotional friction is not drawn out over several days like the old cognitive dissonance. The friction comes to a quick combustion and the most intense part occurs over a few hours, with a definite peak.
I had such an experience watching my program a couple hours before attending a yoga class on Sunday. During the yoga class the movement of energy facilitated some core emotional release. I sobbed noiselessly; the crying came in several waves. I had some nearly wordless thoughts and images that showed me a new understanding that I had reached in what has been in one sense a ten-year-long issue, and in another sense, a lifetime issue. I realized in a moment the very type of changes I would need to make to truly change the course my life had been on. These changes became clarification requests to the programmers.
Everything feels different now.
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