Telling the Truth
Lately so many of my assumtions...identity(s)...likes...dislikes... beliefs... have been "failing" me... i am sooo confused about what is "true"! And who "I" am. Am i God?...? Am i nothing? am i "human"? can they all be "true"? or maybe all not? is it all really just an illusion? then what is "real" ? is there a "real"? The conversations and interests on this site are reassuring and i feel helpful to me ...or are they?! Are we all just making this up as we go in an M.E. sort of way?... or is there an underlying "right" and "wrong" to it all...? I kind of like this not knowing when I can stay there..a reliefe sort of but its also disconcerting...like a free fall. I keep trying to grab onto some tiny twig of "truth' or opinion to reassure myself ... then it breaks.
I do seem to agree that soooooo much of what i say and do isnt the "Truth" ....even what Ive said here
...nothingness seems like a relief... or is it a cop out? this is all rhetorical blabbering...I'm not expecting yall to tell me "my" - "the" truth....and... I'm not thinking this is "bad", what i am feeling, "just different".
man...talk about cognative dissonance!
Blake
Lately so many of my assumtions...identity(s)...likes...dislikes... beliefs... have been "failing" me... i am sooo confused about what is "true"! And who "I" am. Am i God?...? Am i nothing? am i "human"? can they all be "true"? or maybe all not? is it all really just an illusion? then what is "real" ? is there a "real"? The conversations and interests on this site are reassuring and i feel helpful to me ...or are they?! Are we all just making this up as we go in an M.E. sort of way?... or is there an underlying "right" and "wrong" to it all...? I kind of like this not knowing when I can stay there..a reliefe sort of but its also disconcerting...like a free fall. I keep trying to grab onto some tiny twig of "truth' or opinion to reassure myself ... then it breaks.
I do seem to agree that soooooo much of what i say and do isnt the "Truth" ....even what Ive said here
...nothingness seems like a relief... or is it a cop out? this is all rhetorical blabbering...I'm not expecting yall to tell me "my" - "the" truth....and... I'm not thinking this is "bad", what i am feeling, "just different".
man...talk about cognative dissonance!
Blake
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