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The last couple of days, I lost the majority of Japenese Koi Carp in my pond, inc a 20 plus year old goldfish (over a foot long!) Today I just discovered my favourite, dead too. When I got it out and saw how absolute massive it was, I am shocked that I have lost it. It was a beautiful fish, and I know money isn't the be all and end all but it was worth a fortune. It was a gift from an ex-boyfriend, and a special colour that I always wanted.
I used to chat to a lady who could give me answers to things but she charges £80 a time and I just don't have it right now to ask why this happened and what I can learn from it. I'm using Ho'oponono on the situation right now.
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I bought them as youngsters years ago and they've grown into beauties over the years (that is why they are expensive now, rather than when I bought them because they are now very, very large)
Recently I wanted to pay off my credit card debit before it gets too big, and have sold everything I possibly can. I decided I should sell my fish next. I was in two minds what to do. I did muscle testing to decide and the answer was I should sell them. I just couldn't do it. I did the muscle testing twice as I thought it must be wrong. I couldn't get a good "yes" or "no" feeling. Sometimes it felt good to sell them as then my card would be clear. Then I felt sad that my fish would be gone that I have since a teenager and held them in tiny bags as babies. I also wanted them to go to good homes, and concerned they would be ok with new ponds, the water being different etc. I decided to do nothing for now, and review it again in a months time - with the idea I would sell. It is important my card is cleared.
My mother bought some treatment for the pond Christmas time, to help the water be less green. I treated the pond in February but it didn't work. My mother contacted the company who said sometimes it takes a couple of treatments. My father treated the pond and the water went oily and then fish were floating the next day. He found them, not me. He called it a disaster. For some odd reason I feel neutral about it. I'm numb to it. They're energy and they decided to change form I guess.
From the comments my father made I understand that he didn't expect good results and didn't believe in the treatment, despite it having a good name and reputation. (My dad doesn't believe in loa and positive thinking - he has seen the secret - in fact so much so that I am not really allowed to think positively around him, he is very negative and finds me irritating.)
I had to photograph the dead fish to show the company that sold my mother the treatment. They do not know yet. I don't particularly want to complain because that's "pushing against" isn't it? At the same time, I am a loss how I attracted this. I have 1 small-ish koi carp left. I've probably lost a couple of thousand pounds worth of fish.
I had an experience once that was negative and a healer gave me a positive answer why it happened, that made sense to me and left me able to feel gratitude. I would really, really like to know if anyone has any idea please can they let me know? I would SO appreciate it right now.
(ps I don't know if this is a part of it, but feels important to add. Recently I found a baby bird sodden with rain water on our lawn. It was before I learnt Reiki. I marvelled at how beautifully it was made, and wrapped my hands around it wishing I could give it some healing energy. I know it was dead but I wanted to do it. I gave it a buriel. After I learnt Reiki, I found another baby bird on the floor in our open garage. The strange thing is, my mother and I went in there when we had no reason to. We marvelled at that after. I picked it up and it was cold. I held it for a second while we chatted about something and I felt it move. My hands were very warm, and it was still alive. I gave it Reiki and it got more and more alive and better. I wanted to find it some food and care for it, but my father wanted to return it to the nest right away. I wanted it to at least get a little warm before returning it but he said sooner is better. I agreed reluctantly, and hoped the hen would sit and warm them as soon as went out. I put some extra bird seed out. I also put two towels on the ground under the nest just to make sure. Unforunately not an hour later the chick was dead on the floor, just passed the towels and was damaged. That was sad, but I figured other dimensions need to hear bird song too
A few days ago I noticed a really horrible smell coming from another bird nest (we have a lot of sparrow nests here) and there was a dead chick hanging out but it had got stuck in the twigs. There were flies buzzing around it was vile but I couldn't reach it even if I wanted to. I decided to put it out of my mind. I just hope the others grow and fly without it bothering them too much.
Now this is the thing, today I came home from a meeting at 4pm and I noticed a darkness to our garden. Is that just my imagination? What is going on? I'm so sorry this post is so negative, I just know I need to learn something from this, or I may need to do something (maybe that action is just to ignore what's going on?) But if anyone can tell please will they tell me? I'd be ever so grateful.
Hugs xxx
I used to chat to a lady who could give me answers to things but she charges £80 a time and I just don't have it right now to ask why this happened and what I can learn from it. I'm using Ho'oponono on the situation right now.
More info:
I bought them as youngsters years ago and they've grown into beauties over the years (that is why they are expensive now, rather than when I bought them because they are now very, very large)
Recently I wanted to pay off my credit card debit before it gets too big, and have sold everything I possibly can. I decided I should sell my fish next. I was in two minds what to do. I did muscle testing to decide and the answer was I should sell them. I just couldn't do it. I did the muscle testing twice as I thought it must be wrong. I couldn't get a good "yes" or "no" feeling. Sometimes it felt good to sell them as then my card would be clear. Then I felt sad that my fish would be gone that I have since a teenager and held them in tiny bags as babies. I also wanted them to go to good homes, and concerned they would be ok with new ponds, the water being different etc. I decided to do nothing for now, and review it again in a months time - with the idea I would sell. It is important my card is cleared.
My mother bought some treatment for the pond Christmas time, to help the water be less green. I treated the pond in February but it didn't work. My mother contacted the company who said sometimes it takes a couple of treatments. My father treated the pond and the water went oily and then fish were floating the next day. He found them, not me. He called it a disaster. For some odd reason I feel neutral about it. I'm numb to it. They're energy and they decided to change form I guess.
From the comments my father made I understand that he didn't expect good results and didn't believe in the treatment, despite it having a good name and reputation. (My dad doesn't believe in loa and positive thinking - he has seen the secret - in fact so much so that I am not really allowed to think positively around him, he is very negative and finds me irritating.)
I had to photograph the dead fish to show the company that sold my mother the treatment. They do not know yet. I don't particularly want to complain because that's "pushing against" isn't it? At the same time, I am a loss how I attracted this. I have 1 small-ish koi carp left. I've probably lost a couple of thousand pounds worth of fish.
I had an experience once that was negative and a healer gave me a positive answer why it happened, that made sense to me and left me able to feel gratitude. I would really, really like to know if anyone has any idea please can they let me know? I would SO appreciate it right now.
(ps I don't know if this is a part of it, but feels important to add. Recently I found a baby bird sodden with rain water on our lawn. It was before I learnt Reiki. I marvelled at how beautifully it was made, and wrapped my hands around it wishing I could give it some healing energy. I know it was dead but I wanted to do it. I gave it a buriel. After I learnt Reiki, I found another baby bird on the floor in our open garage. The strange thing is, my mother and I went in there when we had no reason to. We marvelled at that after. I picked it up and it was cold. I held it for a second while we chatted about something and I felt it move. My hands were very warm, and it was still alive. I gave it Reiki and it got more and more alive and better. I wanted to find it some food and care for it, but my father wanted to return it to the nest right away. I wanted it to at least get a little warm before returning it but he said sooner is better. I agreed reluctantly, and hoped the hen would sit and warm them as soon as went out. I put some extra bird seed out. I also put two towels on the ground under the nest just to make sure. Unforunately not an hour later the chick was dead on the floor, just passed the towels and was damaged. That was sad, but I figured other dimensions need to hear bird song too
A few days ago I noticed a really horrible smell coming from another bird nest (we have a lot of sparrow nests here) and there was a dead chick hanging out but it had got stuck in the twigs. There were flies buzzing around it was vile but I couldn't reach it even if I wanted to. I decided to put it out of my mind. I just hope the others grow and fly without it bothering them too much. Now this is the thing, today I came home from a meeting at 4pm and I noticed a darkness to our garden. Is that just my imagination? What is going on? I'm so sorry this post is so negative, I just know I need to learn something from this, or I may need to do something (maybe that action is just to ignore what's going on?) But if anyone can tell please will they tell me? I'd be ever so grateful.
Hugs xxx
Sorry if it grossed anyone out! It freaked me out I must admit, it came right out of left field. However, it has tested my faith in energy etc and I know they just decided to change form all together and I have said my goodbyes. It's not about the money, although my ego wanted to say that had a part initially with the company that supplied the treatment!
Any ideas what you would do please? They are reasoning, what if someone treats their pond with koi carp worth thousands? Wouldn't you want to warn them and save their fish? Ack, it's hard. What to do!
I said, that is perfect you can just take them whenever. So that is very good news. I won't have a pond, but my heart has gone out of it anyway. It was a big one too, 1300 gallons and I've always had it so will be strange without it. ah well! thanks for the love hun it means a lot you replied . Kisses xx
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