Hi everyone!
I've been lurking this forum industriously for about a month now but haven't yet been able to post. I came across a post in this forum one night when I was very depressed and on the brink of giving up on everything (been suffering on and off depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember), and was introduced to PATHS. Even though I thought it sounded a bit woo-woo I was intrigued and for some strange reason decided to buy four modules...
Right now I am on:
Mood elevator
Self-confidence
Trauma Free
Increased energy and motivation
(the last two I have only been on since yesterday, was on Goal Setting and Achievement and Get Organized before, but they didn't feel right for me at the moment).
My mood swings were quite turbulent in the couple of weeks before I signed up for PATHS, but funnily enough I felt really good the day after I viewed my first theatre, and for a whole week afterwards - uncharacteristically good. Since then, it's been up and down. I feel it's too early to tell whether it's working for me or not. Sometimes I am convinced that it is working, that I am getting better and that the downs are just a result of the famous 'cognitive dissonance', at other times I get a bit down and discouraged, thinking "who am I kidding, I've tried 1000 other things which didn't work and this seems the most far-fetched of them, it's just a massive placebo...". I guess it's difficult, when you've been down for so long and have gotten your hopes up on so many things that didn't deliver, to strike a balance between too much optimism - and with it the possibility of feeling completely crushed when it doesn't work - and too much skepticism, which never does any good. I find myself wavering between the two constantly. Any advice for me?
I'm not saying I don't feel a change, because I do. Even though these past few weeks have been turbulent for me in terms of university work (final year, lots of deadlines, much stress and little sleep) and other events in my life, I feel I am handling it better than I would have in the past. I have a sense of hope, and I feel better about myself. I'm fairly experienced with using EFT, and when I do EFT these days I seem to get insight into my issues easier. But I have this deep underlying fear that it's all a placebo and that it's going to stop working eventually, and after having spend so much money and time, and most of all effort, over the years trying to feel happy about myself and my life, I don't feel like I can take another let-down... Did any of you PATHers feel the same in the beginning?
Ooops, I really didn't mean for my first post to be a long complaint about my woes and miseries, I just wanted to say hi to everyone whose posts I've been following for so long, but then I got kind of carried away...
Sorry!!! Hope no-one minds...
I've been lurking this forum industriously for about a month now but haven't yet been able to post. I came across a post in this forum one night when I was very depressed and on the brink of giving up on everything (been suffering on and off depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember), and was introduced to PATHS. Even though I thought it sounded a bit woo-woo I was intrigued and for some strange reason decided to buy four modules...
Right now I am on:
Mood elevator
Self-confidence
Trauma Free
Increased energy and motivation
(the last two I have only been on since yesterday, was on Goal Setting and Achievement and Get Organized before, but they didn't feel right for me at the moment).
My mood swings were quite turbulent in the couple of weeks before I signed up for PATHS, but funnily enough I felt really good the day after I viewed my first theatre, and for a whole week afterwards - uncharacteristically good. Since then, it's been up and down. I feel it's too early to tell whether it's working for me or not. Sometimes I am convinced that it is working, that I am getting better and that the downs are just a result of the famous 'cognitive dissonance', at other times I get a bit down and discouraged, thinking "who am I kidding, I've tried 1000 other things which didn't work and this seems the most far-fetched of them, it's just a massive placebo...". I guess it's difficult, when you've been down for so long and have gotten your hopes up on so many things that didn't deliver, to strike a balance between too much optimism - and with it the possibility of feeling completely crushed when it doesn't work - and too much skepticism, which never does any good. I find myself wavering between the two constantly. Any advice for me?
I'm not saying I don't feel a change, because I do. Even though these past few weeks have been turbulent for me in terms of university work (final year, lots of deadlines, much stress and little sleep) and other events in my life, I feel I am handling it better than I would have in the past. I have a sense of hope, and I feel better about myself. I'm fairly experienced with using EFT, and when I do EFT these days I seem to get insight into my issues easier. But I have this deep underlying fear that it's all a placebo and that it's going to stop working eventually, and after having spend so much money and time, and most of all effort, over the years trying to feel happy about myself and my life, I don't feel like I can take another let-down... Did any of you PATHers feel the same in the beginning?
Ooops, I really didn't mean for my first post to be a long complaint about my woes and miseries, I just wanted to say hi to everyone whose posts I've been following for so long, but then I got kind of carried away...

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